something about Life

When a person is born, i believed that he is born with a mission, his life goal is achieving the mission, and for the rewards, he can feel the beautiful world, he can experience interesting,colourful life episodes. As long as a person haven't too desperate to live longer, he deserve the good life and he should do things to make life better. in another words, he still have some hope the life will gonna better off.
There are many kinds of missions , some investigate a better place to live, some create new culture to accommodate new generation. But all the missions have the same objective, contribute then make whole thing better. Everyone will die at last, he can take nothing with him, so the meaning of his ever existence is not what he get or eat when he is alive, but what he have done and the effect to others.
I'd better keep in mind that my mission is to help this world better, thats the only way to get the rewards of happiness.
Without working hard to achieve the mission, happiness is impossible come, in the same way, if there is no happiness , people will too tired to work any more. So i guess the smart way is to make a plan about life happiness, only know what you what and get them can make you positively work harder, motivation. When as teenage, read many detective stories, to one perfect detection, evidence is far from enough, the detective must get the motivation and the way to commit. If we want to achieve the mission, we must have the motivation first then think out the way to achieve, the motivation is what we get from the process,in one word , happiness.
Maslow's hierarchy of needs
Physiological: breathing ,food, water, sex, sleep, homeostasis, excretion.
Food: what i care is not what i can eat, but what i can't eat...i d better stop eating junk food.
Sex: sex is so danger for a woman, a way to vagina is a way to heart, i will never never have sex without love.
Homeostasis: nothing can keep static, only running can keep homeostasis. Exercise is a good way of running. I must running regularly.
Safety: security of body, of employment, of resources, of morality, of the family, of health ,of property.
Of employment: this is what make me feel so unsafe these days.money is not everything,.but without money ,money is everything.Living and eating at home, i plan to pay 500 to my parents, internet and communication and transportation will cost 400; eating and entertainment outside cost 1000. (plus some one marriage, some one birthday...) close somewhat cost 500. Books or other brain investment do not limit. So without saving i have to earn 3000 a month. I guess i can reach this figure after one year...its depend on me mostly anyway...so...fighting!
Of resources: love and money is resources. Money can't take place of love, love can't take place of money.
Of morality: honest, integrity, full of love. Its the most basic of all the happiness. For everyone has conscience, anything betray the conscience will make the person bear heavy stone.
of property: its impossible when i am 30 i still live with my parents...so i have to have my own house, i am a traditional woman, i prefer buy other than rent. An apartment of about 50㎡ cost about 0.6 million, down payment is 200000, monthly payment is about 3500. I am 22now, if i want to buy that before 30 (and the house price do not raise any more...) i must save 6250 every month, so i have earn at least 10000 every month...its looks impossible...but who knows future? I am smart , i work hard...if i rent an apartment, 2000 per month ,25years is 600000, i live out when i am 25, and when i am 50, my parents are 80, they have already not live this apartment...so i inherit their house. But its not the same thing, i still want to have my own house. I think i d better do not too care money, just try best work hard. For in no way i will lose a shield...and maybe oneday i will leave shanghai...
Love/belong: friendship,family,sexual intimacy
Friendship: i deeply feel one really can't live without friends, they are air, maybe you can't feel when they are, but you will fall anguish when without them. So that means I have to be a good friends when they need me, i should treat them in the way how i want they treat me. And i have to improve myself so i can make friends with those who are better, birds of a feather flock together.
Family: one day i will have my own family(maybe...and i 'd better...), when i am not only one, i will have more responsible, learn how to be a wife and a mother...it seems so far,but if one day i really marry some one, though i like children very much ,but if i haven't enough money i won't give birth. If i have a girl i hope she live like a princess before 18 years old.if i have a boy, he 'd better know whats life early so he can get mature not too late...after he/she becomes an adult, my task is over, he/she is free, has to create life own. I hope i can have a boy and a girl if i am rich enough to afford them. Enough money is i and my husband have current money of 200000 at least, and rich enough figure is 500000.
For love is too complicated , if i have chance to be involved in a love affair again, i hope its not just a committed thing. The relationship should lead to a marriage. The only reason we break up is our love disappear, not having to leave china, parents disagree or other stupid reason. I have lost interest in evanescent relationship.so a stick yard of my boyfriend is the stick yard of my husband.
In details:
Bachelor is a must , master +2,doctor+3
Do not smoke is a must, have a history of smoke -1
Drink more than 4times per week -3 , alcohol addict out
Have sister or brother in family +2 (the only -child will be more selfish ...)
Like child is a must (because i like children very much )
Like animals +3 , allow me to keep a pet is a must .(i like animals, if i keep a pet , he'd better help take care of them. )
Smart is a must (he at least should understand my joke , and i hate explain for most joke is not interesting with thinking too much)
Health is a must.
Like reading is a must. Like watching movie +1 ,like travelling+1
Wear glasses +2 （so like guys wear glasses...）
Long eyelash+2 (so cute if a guy 's eyelash is long)
roman nose+3 (for i havent beautiful nose)
Not poor is a must, rich +2
Gentle is a must
Respect woman is a must
Japanese out
Do not fear cold+2(for i always easy feel cold)
Work hard is a must
Good at computer +3
Interesting is a must (but nearly everything seems interesting to me...)
Full of knowledge +5
Can or at least like repair bike, car, clock, toilet and so on +2(i to like , but a man who is repairing something look so cool )
Can draw picture well+3
Can write article well+3
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Adore me is a must
Love me is a must
I love him is a must
Sexual intimacy: before marriage , sex is luxury or cheap.
Esteem: self-esteem ,confidence,achievement, respect of others, respect by others.
Self-actualization:morality ,creativity,spontaneity,problem solving, lack of prejudice.acceptance of fact.
For most people , when feel not happy ,thats because they are struggling with them selves. Most fails caused by lack of confidence .
So we need keep learning.learn how to manage self.